Then
A solitary apartment house, the last one
Before the boulevard ends and a dusty road
Winds its slow way out of town. On the third floor
Through the dusty windows Karen beholds
The elegant couples walking arm in arm
In the public park. It is Saturday afternoon,
And she is waiting for a particular young man
Whose name I cannot now recall, if name
He ever had. She runs the thumb of her left hand
Across her finger tips and feels the little tags
Of flesh the needle made that morning at work
And wonders if he will feel them. She loves her work,
The unspooling of the wide burgundy ribbons
That tumble across her lap, the delicate laces,
The heavy felts for winter, buried now that spring
Is rising in the trees. She recalls a black hat
Hidden in a deep drawer in the back of the shop.
She made it in February when the snows piled
As high as her waist, and the river stopped
And she thought she would die. She had tried it on,
A small, close-fitting cap, almost nothing,
Pinned down at front and back. Her hair tumbled
Out at the sides in dark rags. When she turned
It around, the black felt cupped her forehead
Perfectly, the teal feathers trailing out behind,
Twin cool jets of flame. Suddenly he is here.
As she goes to the door, the dark hat falls back
Into the closed drawer of memory to wait
Until the trees are bare and the days shut down
Abruptly at five. They touch, cheek to cheek,
And only there, both bodies stiffly arched apart.
As she draws her white gloves on, she can smell
The heat rising from his heavy laundered shirt,
She can almost feel the weight of the iron
Hissing across the collar. It’s cool out, he says,
Cooler than she thinks. There are tiny dots
Of perspiration below his hairline. What a day
For strolling in the park! Refusing the chair
By the window, he seems to have no time,
As though this day were passing forever,
Although it is barely after two of a late May
Afternoon a whole year before the modern era.
Of course she’ll take a jacket, she tells him,
Of course she was planning to, and she opens her hands,
The fingers spread wide to indicate the enormity
Of his folly, for she has on only a blouse,
Protection against nothing. In the bedroom
She considers a hat, something dull and proper
As a rebuke, but shaking out her glowing hair
She decides against it. The jacket is there,
The arms spread out on the bed, the arms
Of a dressed doll or a soldier at attention
Or a boy modelling his first suit, my own arms
When at six I stood beside my sister waiting
To be photographed. She removes her gloves
To feel her balled left hand pass through the silk
Of the lining, and then her right, fingers open.
As she buttons herself in, she watches
A slow wind moving through the planted fields
Behind the building. She stops and stares.
What was that dark shape she saw a moment
Trembling between the sheaves? The sky lowers,
The small fat cypresses by the fields’ edge
Part, and something is going. Is that the way
She too must take? The world blurs before her eyes
Or her sight is failing. I cannot take her hand,
Then or now, and lead her to a resting place
Where our love matters. She stands frozen
Before the twenty-third summer of her life,
Someone I know, someone I will always know.
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