To Lou Andreas-Salome
I held myself too open, I forgot
That outside not just things exist and animals
Fully at ease in themselves, whose eyes
Reach from their lives’ roundedness no differently
Than portraits do from frames; forgot that I
With all I did incessantly crammed
Looks into myself; looks, opinion, curiosity.
Who knows: perhaps eyes form in space
And look on everywhere. Ah, only plunged toward you
Does my face cease being on display, grows
Into you and twines on darkly, endlessly,
Into your sheltered heart.
As one puts a handkerchief before pent-in-breath-
No: as one presses it against a wound
Out of which the whole of life, in a single gush,
Wants to stream, I held you to me: I saw you
Turn red from me. How could anyone express
What took place between us? We made up for everything
There was never time for. I matured strangely
In every impulse of unperformed youth,
And you,
Memory won’t suffice here: from those moments
There must be layers of pure existence
On my being’s floor, a precipitate
From that immensely overfilled solution.
For I don’t think back; all that I am
Stirs me because of you. I don’t invent you
At sadly cooled-off places from which
You’ve gone away; even your not being there
Is warm with you and more real and more
Than a privation. Longing leads out too often
Into vagueness. Why should I cast myself, when,
For all I know, your influence falls on me,
Gently, like moonlight on a window seat.
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