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My First Affair With That Older Woman

My First Affair With That Older Woman

when I look back now

At the abuse I took from

Her

I feel shame that I was so

Innocent,

But I must say

She did match me drink for

Drink,

And I realized that her life

Her feelings for things

Had been ruined

Along the way

And that I was no mare than a

Temporary

Companion;

She was ten years older

And mortally hurt by the past

And the present;

She treated me badly:

Desertion, other

Men;

She brought me immense

Pain,

Continually;

She lied, stole;

There was desertion,

Other men,

Yet we had our moments; and

Our little soap opera ended

With her in a coma

In the hospital,

And I sat at her bed

For hours

Talking to her,

And then she opened her eyes

And saw me:

“I knew it would be you,”

She said.

Then hse closed her

Eyes.

The next day she was

Dead.

I drank alone

For two years

After that.



Poem My First Affair With That Older Woman - Charles Bukowski