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Guilty Of Dust
up or down from the infinite C E N T E R
B R I M M I N G at the winking rim of time
The voice in my head said
LOVE IS THE DISTANCE
BETWEEN YOU AND WHAT YOU LOVE
WHAT YOU LOVE IS YOUR FATE
*
Then I saw the parade of my loves
Those PERFORMERS comics actors singers
Forgetful of my very self so often I
Desired to die to myself to live in them
Then my PARENTS my FRIENDS the drained
SPECTRES once filled with my baffled infatuations
Love and guilt and fury and
Sweetness for whom
Nail spirit yearning to the earth
*
Then the voice in my head said
WHETHER YOU LOVE WHAT YOU LOVE
OR LIVE IN DIVIDED CEASELESS
REVOLT AGAINST IT
WHAT YOU LOVE IS YOUR FATE
1984
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