The Idea of Ancestry
Taped to the wall of my cell are 47 pictures: 47 black
Faces: my father, mother, grandmothers (1 dead), grand-
Fathers (both dead), brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts,
Cousins (1st and 2nd), nieces, and nephews. They stare
Across the space at me sprawling on my bunk. I know
Their dark eyes, they know mine. I know their style,
They know mine. I am all of them, they are all of me;
They are farmers, I am a thief, I am me, they are thee.
I have at one time or another been in love with my mother,
1 grandmother, 2 sisters, 2 aunts (1 went to the asylum),
And 5 cousins. I am now in love with a 7-yr-old niece
(she sends me letters in large block print, and
Her picture is the only one that smiles at me).
I have the same name as 1 grandfather, 3 cousins, 3 nephews,
And 1 uncle. The uncle disappeared when he was 15, just took
Off and caught a freight (they say).He’s discussed each year
When the family has a reunion, he causes uneasiness in
The clan, he is an empty space. My father’s mother, who is 93
And who keeps the Family Bible with everbody’s birth dates
(and death dates) in it, always mentions him. There is no
Place in her Bible for “whereabouts unknown.”
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