What Would Freud Say?
Wasn’t on purpose that I drilled
Through my finger or the nurse
Laughed. She apologized
Three times and gave me a shot
Of something that was a lusher
Apology. The person
Who drove me home
Said my smile was a smeared
Totem that followed
His body that night as it arced
Over a cliff in a dream.
He’s always flying
In his dreams and lands
On cruise ships or hovers
Over Atlanta with an erection.
He put me to bed and the drugs
Wore off and I woke
To cannibals at my extremities.
I woke with a sense
Of what nails in the palms
Might do to a spirit
Temporarily confined to flesh.
That too was an accident
If you believe Judas
Merely wanted to be loved.
To be loved by God,
Urban the 8th
Had heads cut off
That were inadequately
Bowed by dogma. To be loved
By Blondie, Dagwood
Gets
Except the hallucinogenic
Architecture of sandwiches.
He would have drilled
Through a finger too
While making a case for books
On home repair and health.
Drilling through my finger’s
Not the dumbest thing
I’ve done. Second place
Was approaching
A frozen gas-cap with lighter
In hand while thinking
Heat melts ice and not
Explosion kills asshole. First
Place was passing
Through a bedroom door
And removing silk that did not
Belong to my wife.
Making a bookcase is not
The extent of my apology.
I’ve also been beaten up
In a bar for saying huevos
Rancheros in a way
Insulting to the patrons’
Ethnicity. I’ve also lost
My job because lying
Face down on the couch
Didn’t jibe with my employer’s
Definition of home
Office. I wanted her to come
Through the door on Sunday
And see the bookcase
She’d asked me to build
For a year and be impressed
That it didn’t lean
Or wobble even though
I’ve only leaned and often
Wobbled. Now it’s half
Done but certainly
A better gift with its map
Of my unfaithful blood.
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