There can be certain potions
Needled in the clock
For the body’s fall from grace,
To untorture and to plead for.
These I have known
And would sell all my furniture
And books and assorted goods
To avoid, and more, more.
But the other pain
I would sell my life to avoid
The pain that begins in the crib
With its bars or perhaps
With your first breath
When the planets drill
Your future into you
For better of worse
As you marry life
And the love that gets doled out
I find now, swallowing one teaspoon
Of pain, that it drops downward
To the past where it mixes
With last year’s cupful
And downward into a decade’s quart
And downward into a lifetime’s ocean.
I alternate treading water
And deadman’s float.
The teaspoon ought to be hearable
If it didn’t
mix into the reruns
And thus enlarge into what it is not,
A sea pest’s sting turning promptly
Into the shark’s neat biting off
Of a leg because the soul
Wears a magnifying glass.
Kicking the heart
With pain’s big boots running up and down
The intestines like a motorcycle racer.
Yet one does get out of bed
And start over, plunge into the day
And put on a hopeful look
And does not allow fear to build a wall
Between you and an old friend
Or a new friend and reach out your hand,
Shutting down the thought that
An axe may cut it off unexpectedly.
One learns not to blab about all this
Except to yourself or the typewriter keys
Who tell no one until they get brave
And crawl off onto the printed page.
I’m getting bored with it,
I tell the typewriter,
This constantly walking around
In wet shoes and then, surprise!
Somehow DECEASED keeps getting
Stamped in red over the word HOPE.
And I who keep falling thankfully
Into each new pillow of belief,
Finding my Mercy Street,
Kissing it and tenderly gift-wrapping my love,
Am beginning to wonder just what
The planets had in mind on November 9th, 1928.
The pillows are ripped away,
The hand guillotined,
Dog shit thrown into the middle of a laugh,
A hornets’ nest building into the hi-fi speaker
And leaving me in silence,
Where, without music,
I become a cracked orphan.
One gets out of bed
And the planets don’t always hiss
Or muck up the day, each day.
As for the pain and its multiplying teaspoon,
Perhaps it is a medicine
That will cure the soul
Of its greed for love